Sleep...
I watch you.. As you sleep in my bed, I watch you. I watch you lie curled up under my quilt.. Finding a comfort that I now hold against you for I know that my quilt will never feel the same again without you under it. I feel robbed of one of my few remaining comforting things in this world. Now that I know what it feels like to lie with you, enveloped in heat from your body.. The quilt becomes that invisible power holding us together… moulding us together. But now, as I sit here and watch you, I know that without you, my quilt wont feel the same.
I watch you.. As you lie with your head on my pillow. Like you’ve done this a million times before. My pillow. You’ve taken over my pillow too! I watch as the pillow eagerly bends and cradles itself around you and I want nothing more than to somehow keep it that way forever.. Keep the impression of your body intact in my bed and your smell on my sheets. Now that I know how your body feels against mine.. How my bed feels different with you in it, I struggle with the agony of the many sleepless nights I know I’ll endure in my empty bed. I struggle with having to get used to this bed which suddenly seems too big for me!
I watch you as you suddenly turn and hold me.. Like finding me here next to you is the most natural thing in the world. I fight the awareness that it’ll be an unbearably long wait before we can do this again. In my head I’m already counting the days and months to go till the next time I can lie beside you like this.. Touching you.. Loving you! I’m torn.. I want to lie as close to you as possible and make the most of this chance I’ve been given. I want to make up for all the days that I’ll be too far away to hold your hand.. To touch you.. To see you. I want to squeeze in a few months worth of caresses and whispers. I want to take in enough of your smell to get me through those lonely months. I want to memorise the feel of your body next to mine so I can, whenever I want to, conjure up this ecstasy I feel. But I also want to pull away from you a little.. Just so that I can see your face.. See that look of serenity that comes over you when you sleep. I want to watch for clues to your dreams. I want to memorise your face and the way it makes me feel!
I watch you.. As you lie with your head on my pillow. Like you’ve done this a million times before. My pillow. You’ve taken over my pillow too! I watch as the pillow eagerly bends and cradles itself around you and I want nothing more than to somehow keep it that way forever.. Keep the impression of your body intact in my bed and your smell on my sheets. Now that I know how your body feels against mine.. How my bed feels different with you in it, I struggle with the agony of the many sleepless nights I know I’ll endure in my empty bed. I struggle with having to get used to this bed which suddenly seems too big for me!
I watch you as you suddenly turn and hold me.. Like finding me here next to you is the most natural thing in the world. I fight the awareness that it’ll be an unbearably long wait before we can do this again. In my head I’m already counting the days and months to go till the next time I can lie beside you like this.. Touching you.. Loving you! I’m torn.. I want to lie as close to you as possible and make the most of this chance I’ve been given. I want to make up for all the days that I’ll be too far away to hold your hand.. To touch you.. To see you. I want to squeeze in a few months worth of caresses and whispers. I want to take in enough of your smell to get me through those lonely months. I want to memorise the feel of your body next to mine so I can, whenever I want to, conjure up this ecstasy I feel. But I also want to pull away from you a little.. Just so that I can see your face.. See that look of serenity that comes over you when you sleep. I want to watch for clues to your dreams. I want to memorise your face and the way it makes me feel!
posted by Empty Space at 6:37 AM
2 Comments:
as usual I thought I will not be able to comment for my favorite all time reasons.....never been in love nor had anyone in love with me.....but then again i looked at it from a different angle....two people in love...
i have not yet met v so i will not write about him right now.
this is the first time i have read about someone in love and how they feel, in this case you. usually it those thoroughly irritating filmy clichéd dialogues which makes me want to hurl.....but this one in fact has the word love almost not mentioned but the whole blog is filled with it.i must say v is very lucky, no maybe blessed would be more appropriate.
What more can a man ask for then to be loved heart and soul by his woman and to return that........
i have been a loner all my life...not by choice. It was more like an accident and i have come to a point where it’s a bit too hard to change. I don’t regret that I am alone and that when I am hurt or happy I am unable to share it with someone...and yes there are times when I do wish I had someone to be with….but then sadly one of the prices you pay for being a loner, getting that someone is a lot more difficult than solving the theory of relativity.
Would it be wrong if I wish that maybe someday I will find someone who will love me like that……..
One thing for sure, when I thought that real pure love had no place in the world of today..just like believing in honour, your blog proves a lot of us wrong and I must, at the loss of my ego, say that iam glad to be wrong.
I pray that the both of you always have the best in life and love and the strength to face all your problems together and that others may watch and hopefully learn what the real thing is……
Girl, your style of writing is absolutely AWESOME!
Really enjoyed reading! :)
And yeah, thank u for visiting my blog! :)
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