Beat the bed bugs!!

Time just flies doesn't it? The days just roll on n' on.. one day bleeding into the other. The good days are when I feel like I've started a fire inside my head.. like riding a train of thought right on till the very end! Those are the best days! Days when I watch the dreams inside my head n' they dont actually get distorted by grocery lists and honking cars. Days when the quiet desperation of emptiness seems to decide to stay wrapped up in a pretty package under the bed. "Now begins forever".. I tell myself this every night before i sleep. Then I wake up the next day and again drift.. from one thing to another, not really committing myself to anything. N here I am.. Suddenly one day wondering where all the time went! I hate feeling introspective... it forces me to look at my life, to analyse it, to fix whatever is wrong. All these thoughts racing through my head as I lie in a bed thats too cold and too big for me... just mins before I fall asleep. Introspection... nah!! Maybe I'll turn the music on tonight! Or maybe even... ! Ladies and Gentlemen.. I no longer lie alone.. right here beside me, taking up all that empty space on my bed, are my insecurities and my fears! Hmmm.. maybe I'll sleep on the floor tonight!