Shine on you crazy diamond...

It's hard when you watch a friend being buried.. a beautiful life taken away too soon. How do you justify it? What do you say to take away the pain? I've realised its a futile attempt. He's dead. Nothing can change that. Nothing makes sense. So we live with regrets.. agonising over things we said and didnt say; wishing we had done more; smiled more; hugged more. Here's one more box of regrets to hide under my bed. But one thing comforts me.. I'm not afraid of death anymore. Cos I know I wont be sad n' lonely up there.. I wont mope around like a new kid at school... I'll have him up there waiting to take my hand n' show me all the cool hang outs! N there we'll sing all day and lounge all day.. and everything will be just the way it was meant to be! So wait for me, my friend. You better be watching my back from up there instead of having too much fun amidst all the adulation you'll obviously be getting! I will miss you... when a person dies, you dont lose them all at once.. it happens slowly.. the phone stops ringing with their name.. their voice becomes distant.. you slowly forget what it was like to hug them.. n lastly, you start to lose the details of their face.. thats how you lose someone. I hope in time i'll be ready to let you go.

Funeral Blues
- W.H.Auden

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message he is dead.
Out crepe bows around the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest.
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods,
For nothing now can ever come to any good.