You're Still You...

It's been over a month but seems like much longer. I still think about you all the time. I've buried friends before but somehow this time its so different. As time goes by I cant seem to be able to let go... I haven't stopped thinking about you.. I haven't stopped missing you.. I haven't forgiven myself for not being around you more often.. I haven't stopped hoping you'll call me one day. I feel like a stubborn child.. I feel like a fool for not accepting reality.. I feel guilty for not calling you whenever I'm at Spencers.. I feel... n' I guess that should be enough for now! I have to accept that you're not busy at work or taking a holiday.. I have to accept that you're dead. Until the time comes when I can go through more than a few days without thinking of you or being reminded of u.. until that day comes, I console myself.. knowing that I miss you because its YOU! Of course I miss you.. what else did I expect?!